Priceless

I met a guy. I guess, he’s someone that anybody wants to spend their life with. He’s good-looking, funny, has a great sense of humor, very responsible, he carries himself very well. He’s a model, a self supporting student. Those are just SOME of the things that I love about him. He’s Ivan.. My friend introduced him to me, Shamae. She had told me that this guy really wanted to know me. It’s funny how he doesn’t want me to know that he’s really interested with me. Coz he’s hard to get, he said. A month ago after we met, he texted me, I really admired the way he made excuses for me not to see the obvious. He has been asking me out for more than 10 times, but I just said yes once. (pa-hardtoget) at first, I was really intimidated but as we bond, I got comfortable with him. We’ve been through a lot of sleepovers, but of course, not just the two of us, we’re in a group. He never took advantage of me, even when I’m drunk. He knows no distance, he would go wherever I am, no matter how far, no matter how deep the night is, he would still go. I love the way he kisses my forehead, cheeks, and my hands. He tickled my heart. I told my self that it would just be a play time, I wouldn’t take him seriously. I was forcing myself to like him that time because I was inlove with someone else who’s not mine. And it happened. I fell for him, I fell for his efforts, words. I love the way he hugs me from behind, he holds my hand in front of the crowd. I could still remember that he was the one who taught me how to cook rice and wash the dishes, shame on me -__- He is my Mr. Independent. Everything was perfect before, but I dont know what happened in the past few months. I am a jealous girl and I am rich in doubts. He’s a very friendly man, and majority of his friends are girls. So, as time went  by, I have accepted the fact that I knew him that way, I should accept it that way. And thank God, I got used to it. But everything has limits. I got tired of hearing gossips, which I have proved that was true. My doubts were at times real. I have been forgiving for a long period of time, which is I guess was abused. I have learned to give give give and give and take nothing at all. How lovable of me, right? I never thought that I would sacrifice so much for him, when I know for a fact that Im not sure of what “WE" have right now. But everything has an end, and I guess the end starts today. I’m tired and fed up. I don’t want to be one of his millions, when I thought before I was the only one. I was dead wrong. Another lesson learned for me. And I hope, this won’t happen again. Thanks for the joy and happiness. I’ll never regret that I loved you because you once made me happy :) I just hope that one day, you’d realize that you’ve lost someone that gave you so much worth that nobody else will. I miss you, and I will miss you everyday. GOOD BYE :) 

I WAS NEVER A CHOICE. ALWAYS AN OPTION